Welcome to my personal weight loss page. I hope it will inspire you as so
many other weight loss pages in the past have inspired me on my own personal journey.
After deciding in 2002 once again, this would be the year I would lose weight
and get healthy. I knew and just felt this time was different, I was serious and ready for a complete lifestyle change. I
was tired of making poor choices and living with the consequences of my enormous weight. I was ashamed of myself for
teaching my poor eating habits to my children.
After reading countless weight loss books throughout the years I thought
I had a fairly strong knowledge of what it took to lose weight. Putting that knowledge to use was another matter. After reading
Fast food Nation I gained a new perspective of the fast food industry. December of 2002 I read Sink Reflections. I thought
even though I am an overweight, unhealthy person I can at least have a clean and orderly home.
That book really struck a chord with me and I finally realized what was apparent
to others that I was a perfectionist. I always thought a perfectionist was someone with a spotless home. This in no way applied
to me. However, I found out that a perfectionist can also be someone that is not willing to do or even try something
unless they know they will get the guaranteed result they want. Believe it or not, it was hard for me to wipe my counters,
clean dishes and other basic things when I was also worrying about organizing the silverware drawer, cleaning the microwave
out etc. It was all so overwhelming to me. I was an all or nothing girl- mostly nothing. Since I was too overwhelmed to do
it all- I just did nothing and would sit and think of what I should be doing but just couldn't .
After recognizing this behavior in myself and finally understanding not only
did that apply to my cleaning habits but to my struggle with my weight as well. I had seen and heard of so many people losing
weight and then gaining it all back plus more. I guess subconsciously I thought why even bother trying?
Needless to say I was inspired at that point to get my life in order. I started
with the goal of doing this for 21 days. The time to instill a new habit, and then 45 days the time it takes to break an old
habit.
I have found the program and support of the meetings to be of a great
help. I am amazed at how much easier I have found the weight loss process to be than I had originally anticipated. I
had always seen it as something unattainable. It has been a substantially easier physically, mentally and
emotionally than the effort it used to take to maintain my overweight unhealthy lifestyle.
Started WW 1/3/03 at 289lbs after losing 7 lbs prior to joining. I am 5'8" tall.
